;; i didnt want it to end this way

I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me
He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I love your Grandma so.
We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter, and this is what it said :
"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I've never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her, his eyes fill up with tears
"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

i guess ive always took things for granted
today i met up with sijia cause she needed to pass me nats skirt and some scores
she said i look damn dead, i guess i wasnt feeling in a good mood and im haveing ulcers so dont realy feel like talking, even smiling hurts now
she passed me the stuff in a bag
chatted awhile then she had to alight
after i left the bus, i decided to check for the things in the bag
and i realised she rmb the booklet, bought me meiji strawbeery chocs!
hahaha she made me smile on the streets!
lucky no one saw me smiling like a retard.
thanks robot (: (: you brightened up my day

many other thigns happened
too much to say (:
some ): some (:
took time off to reflect
sorted stuff out
but im still findin my way
so if i zone out in front of you
im just thinkig of other stuff
been very tired recently
putting on that face when i know it just wasnt how i felt
is it me or just them ?
i dont want to know anymore

i hate myself for complaining. RAH
im an insensitve, uncaring, selffhish person
not a worthy friend at all.
smone told me its hard to find a friend that can walk with you forever
if you do, then good for you
i will just treasure whatver i have(:

i realied i dont know you at all
why nust things become like this :(
because of you,
i dread things i used to love

;; right from the beginning